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To The Church I’ll Never Go Back To
Dear Church Leadership
I doubt you’ll ever read this. I don’t know if I’ll ever feel able to send it to you direct, but I need to write this to get it out of my head.
I don’t know if you will ever truly grasp how much you have hurt me. The trauma and confusion that you have caused me is beyond what I can even see.
You used me. You saw that I was desperate to fit in, and that I had such low self esteem that you could throw me even the tiniest little crumb and I’d accept it.
I was so stupid. I thought that I actually fitted in, but in reality, I never did, did I? I was just too far away from the norm. Oh, you liked to bring me out and parade me around to show how diverse you were when it suited you, but you didn’t really care.
Do you remember when you asked me to meet you for coffee, and proceeded to ask intimate, detailed questions about my sexuality and sex life? Can you imagine how humiliating and shaming that was for me?
You then told me what my sexuality was and put me in a box that fitted with your agenda and only served to make an already confused person, even more confused. (Just as a side note, those sorts of conversations should be held…
