Happy February
I’ve been putting writing this off all day. I don’t even know why, really. I guess it’s a fear of not being good enough.
The thing is, I read a post by a good friend of mine where she talked about posting daily on her blog, and it got me thinking about how much I miss blogging. I miss having that place where I can share my thoughts and my life.
But I’m also scared. I’m scared that if I start, then I might fail. That I’ll have this pressure to follow through.
When it comes down to it, though, if I don’t start, then I’m not even giving myself the chance to succeed.
I think part of this anxiety and part of this doubt is coming from the fact that I’m sick at the moment, and I don’t even really know what’s causing it. I thought it was a medication change, but now I’m not so sure and neither is my doctor. So that means more tests. I feel like a flaming pin cushion at the moment, I’ve had so many blood tests in the last few months.
I’m not writing all of this to try and throw a pity party. I’m not looking for any sympathy. The truth is that whatever this is, I’ll deal with it.
But, putting off writing and not blogging is not helping me. It’s just making me feel worse, so I guess what I’m saying is, this is my promise and my commitment that I will write a post a day.
Sometimes, it’ll be poetry, sometimes snippets, opinion pieces. Basically my life and the messy thoughts that comes with, and I’m hoping that you’ll be okay with that, because I am.
I hope your February has started well.
Let’s do this!
Love, Li. Xoxo
