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Better Days
I’m not going to give this post a proper title, because I’m not really sure what I’m going to write about. Yesterday, I felt very out of sorts for most of the day. I struggled to get much done and it felt like a hard slog that I had to just keep pushing through.
DIFFERENT
Today has felt so totally different. I’ve gotten everything in my seemingly unending daily list (thank you OCD) done, and although I’m tired, I feel so much better emotionally. I know that the warmer weather always helps me, but it feels like more than that. I can’t quite put my finger on it, but it’s like I’m using a different energy. I feel like I have a different energy and I’m starting to realise a few things, which I’m not ready to talk about yet, to anyone. I’m not saying this to tease. I just need to put it out there; a kind of reminder, if you will, to myself, so that I don’t just push them back down into the fog of repressed memories.
LIFE HAS CHANGED
My life has changed so exponentially in the last few years. It’s somehow hard to believe it’s real. I’m missing my friend a lot right now… well, I miss her every day, but it seems particularly strong at the moment. I keep telling myself that she wouldn’t want me to be sad, and that she wouldn’t want me to put my life on hold, so I’m trying to keep going and to…
