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A Fear Of Endings
As a writer, endings are something that I come up against time after time. Ends of stories, novels, and yes, even characters (insert crying emoji here). The thing is, that these endings are ones that I have to face, if I am ever to be a successful writer, because in the end, new stories can’t be written if I don’t say goodbye to the current ones, and there is no space for new characters if the current ones remain in my life.
SOMETHING SCARY
This is something that scares me immensely. I often find myself making excuses not to write (yes, I am aware that this is the absolute polar opposite of what a writer is supposed to do). The thing is, I know better than this. I know I do. And I get so angry with myself, because writing is all I’ve ever wanted to do. It is all I know, and it is as essential to me as breathing.
NOT GIVING IN
So, rather than giving into the fear and shying away from facing these endings, what I actually need is to push through and write them. I need to face my fears, and I need to write as if my life depends on it. I need to write all of the laughs, and loves, and fears, and tears, both of the characters, and of my own, because it is only in the process of facing these fears, that I will truly be able to call myself a writer.
ACTUALLY WRITE
I saw a quote online earlier that said “Don’t be a writer, just sit down and write,” and that is so key. You can only be a writer if you actually write, so this is the advice I will give to myself when the fear seems overwhelming, and I just want to cling on to the familiar story, and the familiar characters, and I will step out into the unknown; into the wilderness, and I will write!
